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its over and done, but the heartache lives on inside
hey you! yes you
hahahahahahahaha. happily reading this right!
stupid idiot. i can't believe you went to search for it. BEST!
but well.. thanks for caring and wanting to know what's happening in my life.
as you can see, pretty sad, no?
i'm so gonna trust you for one last time. yes you will not tell anyone about this addy.
esp your ah liang. ahhahaha.
was nice seeing you, for we haven't had a heart to heart talk for so long.
had many questions i wanted to ask for so long answered.
like, relieved of a burden i carried for so long.
thanks for all the time we msn-ed when i was bored. got to know more of you than after we first left each other.
you'll be the one kept, for all time
thank you jovin,
for listening when i really needed someone the most.
hope my advice helped too.
remember, it takes 2 hands to clap in a relationship, but it only needs one hand to break up.
we both know what the signs means already, but we just wanna lie to ourselves.
we don't even have the courage to ask or face the facts.
but its ok, we'll go through this together ok? hugs..
you brought me on a rollercoaster ride, making my days go up and down.
i've decided. it's time, i get down the ride. :)
thanks for making my days as colourful as can be.
Goodbye....
its hard, holding you, loving you, losing you.
its sad, to be true and be fooled by you.
i don't know, i've gotta know.
should i stay, should i go?
Heaven's missing an angel
went for an audit, a casting, a meeting and a briefing today.
super tiring. running from place to place!
i swear its hell, running in those 3 inch heels with a puny 1cm diameter, in the rain, trying your best to save your hard done make up. God please save me. AMEN!
But at least i clinched the deal for the microsoft one. :)
i'm a happy girl.
it has been one of the best days of my life.
the best date ever. the dinner at indochine was great, the movie was nice.
basically.. everthing went well and i even got my lavenders and pink roses.
i was far far better than i've expected. just great
thanks to all those who've been crossing their fingers for me.
really.
thank you yall.
and most importantly, thank you to the baby who's so sweet.
you made this, a dream come true.
But i know.. as with every other dreams..
i'll have to wake up one day.
Unless you really make it come true.
Just. when. i. thought. our. chance. has. passed. you. come. and. save. the. best. for. last.
Should I stay//Should i go
I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.
please don't read on if you don't want to hear me drone on and on about the same thing.
yes, its still about her.
i really don't know if i should stay or go.
its not even about how much i love her now. That's for certain.
Its the other way round.
Is it worth staying for? Is it worth fighting for?
who am i cheating when i say the end is not what matters. Of course the bloody hell i want us to be together. why else will i be doing all these for her? Losing sleep, getting pricked, spending so much time and effort, even if it ends up becoming kiam chai in her pocket?
i wanna stay. i really really do. i really wanna stay on and love you.
so stupid. i ask chase if i should stay or leave and i'm the one who's giving the reasons to stay instead of leave. But part of me says go. she'll never reciprocate this love. all she wants is the attention from you. You're not the only one for her and you'll never be. You're not the one she loves, you're just occupying time from her. what you think and what she thinks are 2 different things at all. You don't even dare to ask her if you stand a place in her heart, for you know the answer is 99.9% negative.
yet you're finding excuses for yourself to stay, that you hug the god damn bible to sleep every night, wishing that finally she'll come to her senses.
my mind says leave.
but my heart says stay
What am i lying to myself? That a miracle will happen? That we'll be more than friends? That she'll finally see light and see you? Stop being a fool.
you're just day-dreaming girl. It'll never come true.
I give myself a deadline. If by then its still not ok, then....
forget it OK.
Have you heard of the saying for those who are playing
You don't know what you've got till it's gone
Well that was my calling, I knew I was falling
Into something that would be so wrong
But I caught hold of myself and changed for the better
I can't get you out of my mind
Cause something inside made me realise you were fine
Each time when we're alone, I guess I didn't know
How far we were apart, should've spoken to my heart
I guess I didn't know that each time you'd go away I'd cry
I can't take all these good-byes
I know from this feeling, deep inside there's healing
I know that I'm in control
Every day I am yearning, this love I feel burning
Burning right through my soul
So let's make a start of something that cannot be broken
The mould is so strong, treat this love as a child
That grows into something worthwhile
Deep, love so deep, deep love so deep, yeah
I can't take all these good-byes
Faithfully I will be, you will see, please believe me
I can't take all these good-byes
All the time we were alone
Guess I should've really know
Baby you have always been mine
sing this for me baby
i'm so damn tired already.
chase, i think you're so damn right. i guess, when the time's up..
the ship will leave its harbour.......
Back or Front?
Its like sailing in a ship.
The destination is upfront and its where i want to go. But i can't see the shore and the journey is long and tedious. I don't know how long its gonna take to reach there or if life there will even be good at all. Yet, it's my dream destination and it's what i've longed for.
But being in the ship for too long makes me wonder if i should go back to where i came from. The land that gave me love, warmth and support when i needed it. That land that embrace me no matter how many times i stepped on it and let it down. I'm tired from rowing the boat, making progress, for i'm always the one trying to make progress. not vice versa. if only she could take some initiative, that'll make things perfect. then the destination will be clear.
I thank you for the continuous love you've showered on me. 424 days. like you said. not short at all.
for all the times we've spent. in love, joy, in tears, in pain. but if you move on, don't look back, for this ship will sink when the burden gets too heavy. the love was a memory, painful but beautiful. and beautiful things shouldn't be reviewed, for it gets ugly when it's not like how you remembered it to be. i hope i'll find the right girl and not make you sad. I hope she loves me the way she should, so you'll not worry, or even be upset. Life for both of us will go on as we have both learnt. For time and tide stops for no man and that is the best reason for us to learn to let go. So many things to tell you. but can't say it here. just know that...... in my heart, you'll always mean something to me. :) hugs*
and to the one i love more than life at the moment. (like, literally)
pls trust that i trust you. i just needed assurance after all that i've heard. understand that it ain't easy for me too. even if its true, remember at the very start.. i told you, even if you wanted to play around, i don't mind, even if i get hurt, i don't care?
i may not be the one who understands you the most now. but i hope i will be the one in the future and in the years to follow. who understands you and know what you're thinking, so that there're be no doubt between us, and the trust is never shaken.
You're my core shaker, the share i invest in, even though it rises and falls every day. No matter if i win or lose, i just keep on investing, till i run out of money, or love, to do so. like a blossoming tree, my love blossoms too. no matter rain or shine, for a tree won't be strong, if the foundation was weak.
i may not understand you, but i'm sure i make you laugh and bring joy into your life. That what i want to do, to make you happy. For a love isn't true, unless what you want is only the best for that person.
I accept the fact that i'll never take the whole of your heart, for she'll always be the one. but a little space is all i ask for and i'm contented already. you make me become someone who's easily satisfied, and i think that should be something good? My only wish is to see you more now, to repay the debt of missing you too much whilst you were away.
You're my big baby, my baby, my dear, my ben dan.
My everything.
Life would be incomplete without you.
the last thoughts.
i think i can just win the most dramatic life of the year award.
yesterday i went to help pack up stuff at my cousin's boyfriend's place because she was finally leaving that cheating asshole for good. we were supposed to take away the tv, the hi-fi, the ps2, practically everything except the bed. i mean, after all that he's done to her. the hurt and damage, he deserved nothing at all.
then
we went up to the place and he refused to open the door. we heard the other woman's voice and that enraged my cousin even more. she was like, hellbent on going in and getting that bitch out. so after much struggling and shouting, the stupid ex-bf went amok and came out with a knife. i think he went crazy. he wanted to stab us and i was like, "oh fuck. what if i die now?" he drove us to a corner and was contemplating on what to do when my aunt started distracting him and i called the police. he and my cousin started fighting and he shoved her against the wall damn hard. like, there was a loud crack.
there was so much shouting, so much crying and so much sadness in the air.
the police finally came and arrested him, but he still refused to tell us where he hid that girl until the very last minute.
sighs.
the classic case of love-gone-wrong.
its really saddening to think that a love so strong can be dimished into vapour in a twist of fate. and in the end, both parties lost almost everything, even the basic ability to trust at all.
so what's worse?
unrequited love? or having it, then losing it all?
would i ever see you again?
would you know how much you mean to me?
have i told you enough i love you's?
have i told you, there's no one else beside you?
did i even mean a thing to you?
did i succeed in not just being another girl in your life?
will there be another girl so silly to love you as much as i do?
will you come to my funeral?
these were the thoughts that ran through my mind the moment the knife blade was next to my neck.
i really like what it feels when i'm with you, i'm so into you
to a certain someone, (not the usual one, haha!)
all i can say is, been there, done that.
know how it feels when both are equally important and you don't wanna spoil things on both sides.
but in the end, follow your heart to whichever will give you more happiness.
its like treading between the scales. there can be no balance.
you gain some, you lose some. fair enough.
all is fair in love and war, no such thing as who's whose.
no matter what the final outcome maybe, i'll support you to the max.
just as long as u think its right and you'll be happy.
well, that's what friends are for, silly. :)
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh. so angry!!!
she lost the pillow i made!!!! grrrrrr......
idiot!! never take care of it can.... *mutters.
STRANGLES! KILLS!!!!
and she never even come and "hong" me after that, HUMPH!
i hate you!!!!!!!!!!
anyways, mox was good.
so worth the walk in the rain, the beg for umbrella and the scare from frogs and cockroaches.
ma and jay can just be navigators.
having absolute no idea where the place is, we just searched tanjong pagar for a puny lil bar.
but we found it earlier than gen and han, who were at the wrong side.
we should go trekking sometime soon. LOL*
and i should so fucking marry the indian prata man.
hahhahahahhahahahahahhahaha.
when han went to order, he was like, "no more, no more!"
then garie went, he was also like, "no more food la!!"
then me and gen went and SMILED at him and he was like, "girl, what you want to eat? nasi goreng?"
hehehehe, i swear he likes me. haha, he even gave me curry!
the kinda madness we indulge in everyday.
oh yeah!!
gen, han, big/small rach, jovin, jay, ollie and loolin
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gen!!
she's soooooooooooooooooo cute!!! she just wanna be how good-looking?!
haha. we shall go and see see again next friday! LOL*
i'm in sucha sucha good mood.
don't burst my bubble.
Thinkin' back in time, someone said that love is blind
But they were wrong,
You just choose to not see, when it's right before you eyes
You'd rather compromise, than give your all
Then it don't turn out the way it's supposed to be
Time and time again you disappoint when she believes
Just do your best and give here what she needs
And...
Cherish her love
Show here she's right where she belongs
Take care of her heart before she's gone
Cherish her love
And if you care about the weather
Keep her safe and warm
Let nothing in between stand in your way
They say it's calm inside the eye of the storm
Together come whatever come what may
// brian mcknight - cherish
heh. this song.. is for you and all those idiots who can't see what their girls can be.
hint hint* before she's gone
went visiting today. not that much of a haul for the red lil packets cuz most of the relatives are abroad. Like damn, can't they choose a better time?!
whatevers.
my baby niece just made my day. she had these big eyes, chubby cheeks and mickey-mouse ears.
uber lovable. i carried her for the whole day cause she just likes to lie on my.. *gulps.. airport.
i guess i just have this thing for babies. :)
like you, the biggest baby!!
pls pile on the winter clothes over there.
i know i'm naggy, but oh wells, just bear with it can!!
5 more days till u're home.
win more money at the casinos!! then we'll have a feast when you're home. *giggles
i can't take the distance
i can't take the miles
i can't take the time until the next time i see you smile.
i can't take the distance and i'm not ashamed,
that with every breath i take, i am calling your name.
one. step. closer. to. heaven. baby. is. one. step. closer. to. you.
just finished steamboat. yum yum! *rubs tummy
it was really so good, i couldn't stop my itchy hands from edging towards the pot.
at this rate i'm eating, i'll look like an oversized pig in no time can!
time to buy................. extrim. hehe!
went back to school today, had so much fun just catching up.
all my favourite girls, all together, sharing gossip off the hot pot.
dawn with her new boyfriend, bit with her school and pork, xt with her endless trainings and so on.
and the best part? all of them says i've grown prettier!!! LOL* beams beams beams.
just really really happy to see them, like, just really glad.
reunion dinner this saturday, followed by good ole KTV.
we'll just sing and dance and go crazy.
can't wait, faster please!!
you know, when you're waiting for something, time really crawls.
pls! 2 days have crawled by like some thousand year old turtle and i'm really perturbed at the rate it is dripping so damn slowly.
i'm so exasperated, i feel like just pulling my hair out can!!!!!!
wtf. pls! will the remaining 6 days just faster run, sprint or fly by?
i'm already feeling so dead already, hanging on to every of your messages like lifestakes, as though i'd combust spontaneously if i stopped.
never knew it would be so hard, missing someone so badly, you'll wake up bawling like a baby, wishing she'd be right by your side.
enjoy your stay there, my dear.
enjoy your burgers, scenery, shopping, gambling and clubbing.
just know that some girl is missing you like crazy back home.
don't need you to miss me as much as i do, just half of it, and i'll be satisfied. :)
i love you, girl
fat or thin, bah kwa face or qing wah face, tall or short, silly or stupid, rich or poor, near or far, for the better or for the worse.
every single day, hour, second.
i. love. you.
even if you don't, i still do
i'll. be. the. happiest. person. on. earth. if. you. made. me. your. girl
Mmmmm.. waited 2 hours for her to come to the airport alone!
can't believe i did it for i'm the kind who can't stand loneliness and boredom.
thus, i took the skytrain 3 times, walked around changi airport as though i was some tourist.
and the best part, she came, talked for like 2 mins, and left..
-_-" CRIES!!
but it was worth it. :)
8 more days till you're home..
met my dearest charlotte wong after that.
had a great time just sitting down and talking.
quality time spent i'd say. more, please!!
i love you to bits and pieces la you idiot.
for being in the same boat, for being misunderstood, for standing at the same point of view, for you just being you. H-U-G-S.
i feel like i'm getting to the couch//bed potato syndrome.
and i'm growing fatter and fatter.
pls bind red tape on all packets of bah kwa and tins of pinapple tart.
keep them away from the bahkwa-eating monster. LOL*
lalallalalallalala, i'm off to pack my room
simply adore my romeo-&-juliet pillow case. so comfy and nice!!
so sleep-able!!
can't wait till you come over. :)
i'm a happy girl in a happy mood because i can smell ang-paos from the living room.
Laters!!!
bah kwa and mandarin oranges just reminds me of you.
i hope things will go smoothly and steadily from here.
no rushing, no pushing.
cruising all the way down till v day.....
and longer
i am so into y o u.
i love you...
as much as you love the ice creams
as much as you love to eat
as much as you love your car
as much as you love to sleep
as much as you love xiao lu bao
as much as you love yourself
as much as you love her
more, i guess..
but..
its all one way.
i love you like a fat kid loves cake.
its enough to last you a lifetime or more.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEN!!!!!
shall not say how old cuz age is always a secret for women. LOL*
i am feeling pms-sy.
and reading you angst-filled blog entry is not helping in anyway at all.
it just makes me guilty.
hey dear, there's something called unrequited love in this world.
been there, done that.
its a phrase that fate arranges, to put the love to a test.
my moodswings are bad.
one moment i feel as though i can't live without you,
one moment i feel as though i'm over you.
my stupid eyes just wanna cry cry cry themselves dry, i dunno why.
Can I just see you every morning when I open my eyes?
Can I just feel your heart beating beside me every night?
Can we just feel this way together till the end of all time?
Can I just spend my life with you?
// eric benet featuring tamia - spend my life with you
rights. i fainted for the second time in my toilet.
the 1st time was in sec 3 when i had real bad food poisoning and diarrhoea.
this time, its due to the pro-active acids in my tummy, giving me gastrics so bad, i puked 3 times.
mom didn't know to cry or laugh when she saw me sprawled on the toilet floor.
oh wells. what an embarrassment.
anyway.. i'm wearing your t-shirt now.
its comfy and oversized and the most important part is, i'm wearing it cuz i'm missing you.
in some sense or another, at least you're close to me.
i don't know why and it feels weird, but i'm not so hung up on you anymore.
i've quit being dependent on your messages to make it through a day.
perhaps the tiff sort of made me drift away..
the feelings.. they're still there, but not as much as before.
is it good or bad? i don't know, you decide.
on a totally different note, i had fun last night with the usuals and my sweetheart.
and most because my best date is home!!
guess who's back.. guess who's back.. guess who's back (....)
i smell great fun around the corner. *smirks
we're going to the zoo zoo zoo, how bout you you you,
you can come too too too, we're going to the zoo zoo zoo.
hehe
i'm in such a good mood, no one can burst my bubble anymore.
no, not even you
*because i realized i've got me myself and i
That's all i got in the end.
That's what i found out
And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on,
I'm gonna be my own best friend.
met vern for lunch today.
that dear girl brightened up my day by just seeing her face.
:) more lunching soon okies?
the casting was damn funny can!
i think i was very comical and i had like 7,8 NGs la!
the producer was laughing so hard, he almost cried.
He said i made his day, and i had a beautiful smile *beams!!
really appreciate the people around me.
the colleagues, for making breakfast for me because they know i'm gastric-prone
and
the sweetheart which came in form of a girl named teo loolin.
thanks for the sunny sunflower.
thanks for listening to me go on endlessly about her.
thanks for being there.
couldn't ask for more. :)
feeling very unwell.
add a fever to nausea, 2 pukes and a gastric attack.
nice quotient.
no amount of eating can cure the gastric and once it comes, it stays for hours.
i just regurgitate what i had into the toilet bowl and feel really awful.
well, lonely souls who have no one to take care of them are like that.
cry alone, die alone.
sighs.
where are you, when i need you so?
*if i had to pay tax for everytime i miss you,
i would have maxed my credit card bill ten times over.
i need a girl who's mine, all mine
i need a girl, in my life.
i need you
i never knew it was so hard to get through a day without you.
its just h e l l. cold cold h e l l
i need you, my sunshine. to induce some warmth in my life.
*
loolin and jay are over at my place for baileys.
what a tiring day today.
first day of work at the agency.
fun! so much bitching, gossiping and snacking.
slyvia and mandy are such riots.
i'll have like, damn alot of castings and audits in the following week.
and i have this show at murray which pays $150 for 3 hrs.
cool cash. :)
delifrance commercial on thursday.
rav party on thurs and fri.
tight schedule, but exciting nonetheless.
FHM soon! i just can't wait.
*crossing my fingers, waiting till the day you come back again.
:: and. then. i. have. to. spoil. it. all. by. saying. something. stupid. like. i. love. you. ::
// edited.
i dunno what spurred me to write this, perhaps its the date,
but, here goes.
sometimes in life, you look back and regret.
i'm sure many of you are protesting, that you never regret anything that you've done, cause its no point. but c'mon, i'm bet there was a certain something you wished you had or hadn't done. especially when it comes to relationship issues, perhaps the very fact that it plays with our emotions makes the regret way deeper than any other matter.
and the greatest thing i've regretted so far?
that at a certain point of time in my life, i chose fun over that certain someone.
and now i turn back for a review and i see her with someone else, i start thinking "why couldn't i stay put? i could be happy, like how they are now."
i read and re-read and re-re-read the messages she sent me eons ago and start to realise how much i meant to her last time. reality hits in and regrets pour down on me like a meteoric shower.
in a moment of fury/folly, i chose to end it with someone who could have been the one
one year down the road, its really too late for regrets.
i wish you both bliss, that you inherieted the happiness that i was supposed to be showered with instead of the agony i'm basking in now.
sometimes, the most unexpected things in life turns out to be the bestest best bet there could ever be. i never thought i'll put in so much feelings to what i presumed was just a fling. you made a great impact in my life, made me a much stronger and better person. you showed me what romance was in more ways than one. i remember you saying "if we were still together, i'll show you more of what romance means to me." well, i never had the chance and i don't think i'll ever have the chance again.
the bottomline is, please cherish what you've got when you've got it.
somethings when gone, never come back again.
the understatement is, don't give up so easily.
you never know till you've tried.
and you'll regret not trying when later you realise that she's the one.
Note: i will not let history repeat itself.
and that's the exact reason why i'm hanging around, so that i'll not lose you.
remember i said i was a psychic? i know we'll work out and WE can make it.
girl, put a little faith in me and you
at the end of every rainbow, there's a pot of gold.
*Never gonna give you up, never gonna let you down.
never gonna tell you lies and hurt you.
never gonna make you cry, never gonna say goodbye,
never going round and round and desert you.
everytime i turn to leave with a heavy heart,
i feel a tug at my feet, urging me to stay.
it hurts as much as a deep cut.
i really really wanna give up.
i thought you were gone,
but your words proved otherwise.
i thought i saw you out that door,to a faraway land,
but the moment u came back,
u turn my life upside down again.
u already have someone who loves you,
dont let her down, although all i ever wished for, is you in my arms.
it feels so selfish
when will this viscious cycle ever end?
feeling weird.
saw her yesterday.
she just came back, we met at 5-10.
got this really warm reception which sort of rekindled a dead flame.
taken aback, yet glad at the same time.
i dunno.
shoot me.
glad to see the rest too. like a big family reunion.
they were all crying though, which made me teary, thinking of my situation.
yeah loolin,
i'll join you..
in e r a s i n g her away.
:: i was only thinking of you, hoping you were thinking of me,
2 hearts beating just like one against the world.
i was only dreaming of you, hoping you were dreaming of me,
i can never live one day without your love.
:)
its a sunday afternoon, i'm bored and i just quit warehouse.
so here i am with my most updated wishlist.
10 things i want, fancy, need, can't live without.
(U get the idea)
1. a new digital cam or camera phone because both of them are fucking up on me big time now. -_-"
2. the damn nice vintage adidas sling and the uber cool armani sling too.
3. polka dotted curtains and the prop-ups to make my room look retro.
4. a new pair of jean from a/x or levi's? i can't make up my mind.
5. the stripey lingerie from fling! *smirks
6. a pair of sneakers that shouts "i'm made for you, wear me!!"
7. more pointies! i never get enough of them and i think my feet are starting to resemble a triangle uncannily. hmm....
8. a sub-card from my dad so i can erase the word 'broke' from my dictionary. :)
9. my powerbook and iPod.
10. ultimately, (corny and cliched as can be) y o u. i don't wanna be alone this valentine.
yeah, that's all.
in case of any emergency, the 1st 9 can be forgo-ed.
:)
so if any rich millionaire happens to look up on the state maine and accidentally stumbles onto this site,
please, feel free to correspond with me regarding the details of the wish list.
thankyouverymuch.
LOL!
my j&j photoshoot's hairstyle looks like marilyn monroe's.
i don't care what u guys say!!! LOL*
feel as though i walked out of the black and white tv screen into the slimscreen era.
psychedellic!!!!
i don't wanna work at warehouse!!!
fucking tiring and boring!
sighs, i dunno how to tell them, i quit
i just wanna quit everything la.
quit work. quit loneliness. quit being stuck on you.
i feel so burnt out, so tired, so exhausted.
cause its just too late,
nothing lasts forever.
i'm sorry, i can't be perfect
i can't think of a song more appropriate than this.
but i forgot the title. whatevers.
the usuals.
u all light up my life with sugar, spice and everything nice.
=)
hope we'll meet up as frequently albeit all your hectic schedules.
ilu*
and to loolin,
love takes time
you get the picture. *smiles
":"
like a missing piece of a puzzle, u fill in the blanks.
u're my prozac, u keep me sane.
just as i thought the sky crumbled onto me, u held it up like a blanket in the sky.
=) t h a n k s
so.
i don't have to wake up early every morning.
i get cash to spend and buy clothes.
i am single and lead a carefree life.
i don't get nagged at when i don't come home.
you should envy me right?
no.
no no no no.
you don't know how it feels when you put faith into a religion and it lets you down.
you don't know how it feels when you sleep at night, thinking tomorrow will be a better day, but the next day lets you down.
you don't know how it feels when you put your heart into someone elses hands and she send it smashing to the ground.
you don't know how it feels when everyone goes to school or work, and you see the world moving before you, but you're stagnant.
it hurts everytime i try to tell you how i feel.
it hurts even more when you tell me how you feel.
or for that matter, who you feel for.
no one has even made me feel that useless.
helpless, hapless, unloved, unwanted, shoved aside.
as though i was drowning, and i see you in front of me, your arms folded akimbo, refusing to save me.
or refusing to try to save me.
and you know what?
we're just so not meant to be.
pick me up, somebody.
hello god, can you even hear me?
i just....... need somebody.
i just....... wanna break down and cry.
sail me into the next harbour soon.
if not this ship is just gonna sink.
New Year's Resolutions 101
1. Not to have any resolutions.
2. Pray more so that perhaps the man up there will take pity on me and give me a decent-looking O's cert.
3. Love more. Its such a tentative need.
4. Stop laughing at those people who are going to school. My canvas is blank.
5. Learn to cherish you
ok, that seems enough for the time being.
albeit none of it ever gets done in the end. LOL.
its the new year and the first thing that hit me this morning was what jack said to me a week ago.
"You've grown up, girl."
mmm.. perhaps, perhaps.
but i like the later line, which goes,
"prettier and sexier too."
*giggles.
the poor school goers have to start the treacherous journey of early mornings again.
the poor school leavers have to start the equally bad process of filling in the empty spaces.
i just miss the feeling of buying new stationery, files and printing my big 'Germaine Ong' on the books to safeguard my property.
i miss running in to school late with a handful of the usuals, giving each other meaningful smirks to say,"hi, its a new year and here we go again."
I feel like antique
whatever.
// beautiful, i just want you to know, you're my favourite girl.
i just want you to know that you're reaaaaallly special
